I don’t have tons to say.
I go back to school tomorrow, I’m way too excited.
Here, have a song recommendation:
(Inside of You, In Spite Of You. I HATE the video, but Thoushaltnot is hard to find.)
The White Beyond is also awesome, too.
PS. RIP Daniel’s long hair. 
I haven’t posted in here forever. I kinda fell back to LJ with several random posts on Xanga a week.
No-one uses Xanga anymore, and LiveJournal is my forever love. (or not, ’cause i’m a liar)
Ahem, let’s see…
- Website Junk
I made eleven fanlistings as of the past two months, I think… Clicky!
Sean & I also made a website to celebrate our BFF-ness, which is why the S&J pages have been removed. Now presenting… Magical!
- Furcadia Junk
I renamed Envious Harmony to Wicked Luna and changed the color scheme.
Still working on it, but its coming along nicely, I think. (God knows i’ll never finish it. :p)
http://wickedluna.strawberry-twilight.com
- Drama
I’ve had a falling out with several real life friends, and we’re okay now..
But it honestly doesn’t matter to me so much anymore since I have her, and she’s so wonderful it hurts.
- Love
Aaah, I adore-adore-adore the same boy i’ve adored for the past four years…?
But there’s a new one in my life… Sigh. Complicated.
I never believed I was fickle, just unsatisfied… I dunno.
No details.
- Movies
American Beauty & Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind are my two new favorites at the moment.
They’re both wonderful films.
- Music
I recently fell for The Dresden Dolls hardcore, but am slowly recovering.
I listened to nothing but Phil Collins for like, a week after that. lol
He’s my favorite.
- Misc.
Much planning for my Halloween party on the twenty-seventh.
And no, i’m not telling what my costume is. 
For those of you who care about my gaming.. Guildcafe.
Rambling over and out, because I need to get some schoolwork done.
I hate feeling ugly all the time.
I hate feeling unloved.
I hate feeling like i’m not good enough for him.
I hate waking up every fucking day, and wondering why i’m here.
I hate crying.
I hate being alone.
I hate this post, and I definitely hate all this whining.
I hate how this post is going to have me labeled as emo.
I hate how I talk too loud, or too much.
I hate how I compare myself to everyone, and force myself to believe i’m a thousand times prettier than them.
I hate this false security.
I hate lying to myself.
I REALLY HATE how I walk, and how someone points it out when I think i’ve fixed it.
I hate how there’s no way to fix it other than some surgery that’s gonna keep me in a wheelchair for months, and how i’ll have a large chunk of metal in my leg for the rest of my life.
I hate how my Mother had to do drugs.
And I hate how it fucked me up.
I hate how that seems incredibly selfish.
I hate the fact she’s dead.
I hate how my first real boyfriend made me feel like the ugliest thing in the world.
And I hate how my second made me feel unhappy. (even though he’s a really nice guy with lovely eyes.)
I hate how that one guy made me disgusted with sex.
I hate how I don’t feel like i’ll ever get over it.
I hate how he called me a thousand times afterward.
I hate how my Grandmother still adores him, and tries to make me talk to him, or go in and see him at work.
I hate living with my Grandparents because I know eventually they’ll die.
I’ll go someplace bad.
And be alone.
I hate how I don’t think I could make it without my Grandma.
I hate how I feel like an awful person all the time.
I hate how I’m always left out.
I hate how my RL “friends” don’t seem like they’d give a shit if I died.
…Except for Rachel.
I hate how I can’t trust anyone.
I hate how I think everyone has a motive.
I hate how I think everyone is lying to save my feelings.
I hate how i’m so damn paranoid.
This post makes me seem so unstable.
I hate how I kept everything so bottled up inside.
I hate how its being expressed through this.
…
lol. I set this up because I wanted a neat little blog, one that some people know about, and don’t. I realized that each of my blogs have posts with certain people in mind, so some things are said, and others aren’t.
LiveJournal is tailored mainly towards Sean, and my LJ friends.
Xanga is tailored towards my school friends.
MySpace is tailored to just MySpace.
Tastyword is tailored towards Helena.
Facebook is for Buhler friends, mostly.
Yahoo 360 is for Luca & Sean.
So, this is for everyone that will listen.
But on this blog.. nothing will be held back, and everything will be said.
It is my personal corner without having to worry about what certain people will think.
So excited!