Dreams of Mars

“So…

We thought it would be cool to get a cat for the office, but we needed a litter box, and there wasn’t really room in the bathroom, so we put it next to these servers in the back, and everything would have been fine, but the A/C repair guy was allergic and the cat reacts badly to loud noises and there were all these wires hanging back there and a bunch of surprisingly flammable packing material…

Erik thought it would be JUST AWESOME to put a paperclip on the end of a rubber band and shoot it at Vinay’s eye, and it would have just been Erik and Vinay’s problem except Vinay had a cup of coffee and was standing over James, who was fixing our router at the time…

Anyway, we’ll have things back up soon. Sorry for the inconvenience.

- Worker”

• http://unleashthefurybambi.ytmnd.com/ lol Atreyu <3 #
• Wanna sleep now now, but I love talking to Seany. #
• @Charalei *hugs* <3 I just now saw all your replies. @_@ #
• I’m tired of having crappy days because of you.. :( #
• So, took a bath, and am now watching TV and burning CDs.. bed soon.. that’ll be nice. #
• I’m going to go feed the most beautiful dog in the world. Back soon! #
• OHMYGOD. I FOUND A NEW CHANNEL! Well, not new, and I’d known about it… but I just finally found it.. thanks to favorite lists. #
• Stuffy nose + PB&J = dying. #
• So the chili ramen made my lips burn intensely, and I only used like… a little over half of the packet? That stuff is hella-hot! #

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• Now I’m adding flavor! #
• Cooking my first bowl of chili ramen! #
• “I’m a Justice of the Peace man!” #
• Why does Dave Matthews always fuck with my computer?!
  Why can’t I listen to some damned Dave! #
• It is so beautiful outside! I stood there for five minutes singing ‘American Pie’ and wishing it would rain. #
• Kanye West’s girlfriend might just be one of the prettiest women I’ve ever seen: http://tinyurl.com/cwq4cp #
• James Spader is so amazing. (Watching “The Watcher”.) #
• @vivianmarieadp Thanks for the encouragement! I think I’m better suited to writing short stories, lol. in reply to vivianmarieadp #
• Feeling a little restless, and quite a bit creative. It bothers me to not have an outlet that satisfies me right now. #
• Writing my new novel – wonder if I’ll ever finish this one. #
• Ick! At school, and I don’t feel all that great, trying to get as much done as possible though. #
• I am eating a bagel, for the first time, right now. #
• I don’t know why I get so jealous or irritated.. And I miss him.. :( #
• Oh, I finally watched Bug last night. Crazy as fuck. If you like bug movies with a government conspiracy twist, you’ll probably like it. #
• @Charalei Not yet. My digital camera doesn’t have any batteries. lol #
• I think I might prefer the regular version of Smokie’s Living Next Door to Alice, ’cause I can dance around in the kitchen to it.. x) #
• @Charalei No, I just shaped them amazingly. lmao. This keeps getting worse and worse. #
• I finally have the eyebrows I’ve always wanted! :D
  Can’t wait to fill them in tomorrow. *beauty-geek-squee* #
• I miss Ghostwriter! And hate the fact Twitter doesn’t allow edits. #

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Our eyes met, and you didn’t smile, you didn’t speak, you didn’t move closer.. away, away you moved.
I kept thinking, hoping you’d come back and talk to me.. and you didn’t.. and in that moment, I felt a small part of my heart crack, I really, honestly, literally did. It hurt so much, and I was left to stare.

You can’t leave my life the way you did, and come back, and expect me to be happy about it.
Neither of us are the same people we were four years ago.
We will never be.

And as much as I miss you..
My life is better off without you, as is my heart.
It hurts me to say that, but I need to.
I can lie and say I don’t miss you at all,
but chances are, I probably always will.
Miss the person you used to be.

Because when we’re around each other now,
even on good terms,
it still hurts me.

I hope you realize that I don’t hate, or even dislike, you.
(I just don’t know what to say anymore.)

So I’m watching the South Park Christmas special with Charles Manson… and its making me pretty happy, or at least cheered up some.

I don’t think this post will be very long.
I feel very tired.

I adore you, and I’ll write more on that later, albeit a protected post.