Dreams of Mars

Back on the medication I go.
I’m fucking freaking out.
There are so many emotions swirling around in my fucking head.

I feel tense, and light-headed.

i’m done

Am I sorry your sky went black
put your knives in babies backs?
Am I sorry you killed the Kennedy’s
and Huxley too?
But I’m sorry Shakespeare
Was your scapegoat
And your apple’s sticking into my throat.
Sorry your Sunday smiles are rusty nails
and your crucifixion commercials failed.
But I’m just a pitiful anonymous

And I see all the young believers
Your target audience
I see all the old deceivers
and we all just sing their song.

Am I sorry just to be alive
putting my face in the beehive?
Am I sorry for Booth and Oswald
pinks and cocaine too?
I’m sorry you never check
the bag in my head for a bomb
And my halo was a needle hole.
Sorry I saw a priest being beaten
And I made a wish
But I’m just a pitiful anonymous.

And I see all the young believers
Your target audience
I see all the old deceivers
and we all just sing their song

“The valley of death, we are free
your father’s your prison you see”

And I see all the young believers
Your target audience
I see all the old deceivers
and we all just sing their song.

You’re just a copy of an imitation.

(The president is dead, let us pray.)

[Target Audience © Marilyn Manson]

I haven’t posted in here forever. I kinda fell back to LJ with several random posts on Xanga a week.
No-one uses Xanga anymore, and LiveJournal is my forever love. (or not, ’cause i’m a liar)

Ahem, let’s see…

- Website Junk
I made eleven fanlistings as of the past two months, I think… Clicky!
Sean & I also made a website to celebrate our BFF-ness, which is why the S&J pages have been removed. Now presenting… Magical!

- Furcadia Junk
I renamed Envious Harmony to Wicked Luna and changed the color scheme.
Still working on it, but its coming along nicely, I think. (God knows i’ll never finish it. :p)

http://wickedluna.strawberry-twilight.com

- Drama
I’ve had a falling out with several real life friends, and we’re okay now..
But it honestly doesn’t matter to me so much anymore since I have her, and she’s so wonderful it hurts.

- Love
Aaah, I adore-adore-adore the same boy i’ve adored for the past four years…?
But there’s a new one in my life… Sigh. Complicated.
I never believed I was fickle, just unsatisfied… I dunno.
No details.

- Movies
American Beauty & Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind are my two new favorites at the moment.
They’re both wonderful films.

- Music
I recently fell for The Dresden Dolls hardcore, but am slowly recovering.
I listened to nothing but Phil Collins for like, a week after that. lol
He’s my favorite.

- Misc.
Much planning for my Halloween party on the twenty-seventh.
And no, i’m not telling what my costume is. ;)
For those of you who care about my gaming.. Guildcafe.

Rambling over and out, because I need to get some schoolwork done.